Truth Discovered

Two for the price of one.

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 05:22:44 GMT

So it really has been awhile since i've updated, so lets give this a shot.

Really I should be A. Sleeping, or B. Doing homework.

Lets start from the beginning. This summer I stayed down in the Chuck and lived with Kyle because my family life was not something I wanted to go back home for. I didn't have a place to stay and didn't want to work with my mother, since you know we don't talk at all anymore. I ended up taking a math class, and working at the dining hall.

It was a relaxed summer, didn't do a whole lot, just went home for some random things. My uncle got ordained as a Jesuit Priest, so that was cool. Got random visits from my dad because he broke down this summer about the divorce and had to seek some help and what not.

Then Kyle started looking for a job, and got offered a job back near where I live. He wanted me to come with him to live with him. I gave it some thought, because it was my last year, and I was going to live with the best girl on the planet, and I don't except change that well.

The pro's outweighed the cons at that point, and I ended up moving to Vernon Hills. It was a good decision to be closer to my dad, to help him out a bit more with what was going on, and being there for my sister.

I got accepted to Dominican University for the Fall, and they took almost all my credits, but I gotta retake a few classes, but should be done by summer. I had a few set backs with jobs, but now I have one so that is good.

But I miss EIU terribly, and a lot of people still down there, and I can't wait til i'm able to visit.

I don't have many friends up here, and the ones I have, and made (ter, amy, meg) I barely get to see because i'm in school 12 hours on tuesdays, 8 hours on thursdays, then work all days that i'm not in school except sunday (since we are closed). It is also hard to make friends at school, since i'm only there two days a week.

So its hard because I feel like i've given up a lot to move back up here, and it seems that Kyle just has gained much, much more. I guess its about sacrafices.

Things are going good for us, money is just tight and the basis of some fights, but we get over it.

I don't know what I would have done without having Kyle with me though, hes amazing.

Thats pretty much whats going on in my life right now, just to keep you updated.

So drop me a line, or a comment.

<3
Deidre

Lets end this with a song.

New Motion City Soundtrack Lyrics

Hello there, how you doin'?
I've got all these thoughts just floating through my brain
They bump and they collide and cause a flurry of confusion
And it's getting on my nerves
I try to hold myself together
fighting off this mental weather when I can (sometimes I do)
But this shitstorm's never ending
And the atmospheric pressure's calling for rain

This is what I've got going on
This is where I belong tonight

A little rant..

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 05:21:50 GMT

So, I decide to actually really check my facebook, and what do I see.

My 47 year old mother made a facebook profile.

Why the fuck does she need a facebook profile?? Then, she adds me as a friend, because I guess she still can't pick up a phone and call me. It made me physically sick, I almost threw up, and I started crying because all she kept doing was mentioning her stupid new boyfriend. Also, she has the balls to tell everyone but me that she wants to put me back on the phone plan, but if I want to do it, I have to call her. Hell, why would I want to be put on her phone plan again, when she put her cell phone under a bankruptcy settlement thing. HELLO, I don't have a credit card for a reason.

I also may have to go to court in Dec, about the divorce, woot.

Now changing subjects, I work at hobby lobby, and there are a handful of employees that feel they need to call of all the time.
Its getting a bit redic. It screws everyone else over, hello its retail. I think there needs to be a major readjustment at work.
At least I have this coming up saturday off, and i'm having a bar hopping/spooning day with my BFF Meghan.

PPS. I'm kind of feeling empty lately, I don't know what it is. I do know that when the weather begins to get colder my depression grows. RIP John. Just brings me back to horrible horrible memories over the past years. From Johns death, to my mom being in a psych ward twice, to my mom cheating on my dad and announcing the divorce. Oh goody, I cannot wait.

Yeah i'm pretty much done.
Positives:
+ Bought the new Coheed Cd and I love it.
+ Bought a pumpkin and curved it.
Negative:
+ I have yet to start my massive amount homework :(

.I believe in the world right in front of me,
but now, along these empty streets
where this curse holds these memories of a man,
you know he's lost.

Yup, now what?

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 02:46:35 GMT

So tomorrow is my last day of work for this summer.
WOOHOO!!

She already wants me back for thanksgiving, christmas, spring break, and next summer.
Wooo to money, boo to sitting in a cubicle.

Uh yeah
So I realized that people suck.
And should really answer their phones if they cared.

Good to know i'm being replaced so easily.

Right so I really want to hang out with some people.

I'm free tomorrow night, thursday, friday, saturday.
So hit me up, you know how to.

OH PS. this whole working out thing is kicking my ass, I kind of like it.

<3
Deidre
xoxox

. and can you settle me down .

yeah a chain thing I know.

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 02:00:23 GMT

Girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: just lost a championship game,
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Boy: bye
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure
Girl: bye
Boy: bye

2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....

her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead

her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition

This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend

Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she ok ? ?????
Sister: shes in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes

He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door
going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he
heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump

Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...

it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick

he opened it.....

it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am
and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you

sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to

and the first picture they took together

he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture

it looked as if in the picture she was crying

then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead

If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.
if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen

Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best

day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will

either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better. If

you break this chain you will have a lousy day on Saturday, and

you know you can

I got a date with the night...

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 17:15:06 GMT

So this week is dragging major ass.

Matts fish smell.

I'm super stressed out about my two tests tomorrow

I just charged my 20 dollar birth control patches to my student account

I want to go home

I need to stop waking up at 7 in the morning
then going back to sleep til nine
It makes me even more tired.

I cut my next year roomies hair.
Its hot sex.
I cut like 4-5 inches off
It was fun.

I can't wait to live in an apartment next year.
Especially with ana
it will be hot drunken sex
Silly girls.

I still hate this school.
Nothing makes sense here.

My grades are improving.

I put away my winter coat
It should be spring now bitches.

I like cuddling don't you?

Yeah this post blows
Sorry guys

OMG last night I had soup
And the noodles had Meat in them
So I had to scrape all of the meat off
Fucking blow me Campbells

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. You make me wanna .

PS
It was Matt and My Five month anniversary this Month
My birthday is coming up in less than a Month
PRESENTS BITCHES

Picture post

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 16:42:19 GMT

This is basically just a shit load of pictures from the other night.

Terri and Hollywood

Pretty Boy aka Drew

Amy and Matt

Haha Terri's eyes are closed

Matt pouting, and Amy

Me looking fat, Terri, Hollywood

Hollywood and Matt, matt wishes he was sexy.

Me, Terri, Hollywood, I honestly don't know whats going on there.

Terri has Nice Boobs.

Matt enjoys his sleep.

Terri is going crazy.

Terri Looks confused lol.

So there ya go.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. These dreams are made for lovers .

Yesss.

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 22:51:01 GMT

Yes.

I am coming home tonight.

Be at home around 11 or midnight.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. Better miss me you fools .

I'm a redhead.

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 01:43:22 GMT

Now here are the pictures to prove it.

My helper Kiley.

I really fucking like it.
How about you?

Haha oh yeah
Kiley had fun with my makeup.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. I feel all fiesty heh .

DO THIS!

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 05:35:33 GMT

I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

You fuckers better do this!

Color.

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 16:20:46 GMT

This is the color that I'm going to dye my hair this week.

Its called Tempted peach haha.

I enjoy it a lot.
So neener.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. I had a dream, that you were my king, and I was your queen.

Oh I had my first cancelled class today.
Soc.

Huge ass picture post.

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 21:39:56 GMT

Here a a bunch of pictures offff.

The Secretary

Fear Before The March of Flames

One of Evergreen Terrace or whatever
They were on the opposite side of the stage
So I couldn't get any good pictures.

Norma Fucking Jean

Random

Haha whats up kyle.

I'll have a non picture entry later.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. we love like spiders, you won't feel a thing .

Yeahh.

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 16:08:25 GMT

So i'll have pictures of the show sometime today.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. Last night on the mass Pike, I fell in love with you .

God what a waste of an entry.

Today.

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 15:01:05 GMT

Today I will be seeing...

EVERGREEN TERRACE/THROWDOWN/FEAR BEFORE THE MARCH OF FLAMES/ AND NORMA JEAN

In decatur.

Or however the fuck its spelled.

Cuz its free.
And I like free.

Jealous?
Cuz I would be.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

I made myself pretty.

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 23:14:04 GMT

This is what I did when I was bored.

Uhm Yeah not friends only again
because I don't want to post them on xanga
Its just so my xanga friends can see.

Hair.

And this is what I look like when I care.

Haha quizzz.

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 18:08:34 GMT

According to the Which Something Corporate Song Are You? Test...

Pictures and such...Public Until Tomorrow.

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 01:09:27 GMT

Hope you enjoyed.
The ones from around campus was when we were walking to and from Carmen for dinner.

Today ultimately sucked a big nice cock.

We went over some of the homework problems in Philosophy
And most of my answers were wrong.

Work blew
I was the only one working
A stupid cook ruined the drain
I got shit all over my pants
I had to do laundry

My RA is being a bitch to me
And not telling me anything
Just being a big fat bitch
...Someone should feed her.

Hmmm at least tomorrow is friday
Hey hey.

Now i'm off to do homework in the library
Because i'm just that cool

<3
deidre
xoxoxo

. These nights were meant to last forever .

care.

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 04:22:49 GMT

I care about him so much.

This weekend cannot come soon enough.

<3

Friends Only.

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 21:43:40 GMT

I was looking through the window glass
Hoping my reflection
Would give me the answers
To the lies I know as truth.

This shit is friends only.
Add me and I might add you back.
Or comment
And I'll think about it.

About that time..

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 17:47:47 GMT

It is about that time.
For this shit to become friends only.

Sorry Lovers.

I'll have a formal friends only thing this evening.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. I hope you choke on all the lies you feed to me .

haha some pictures of chris.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 19:06:22 GMT

Click on the cuts.

Chris with another girl in his bed?
Whattttt?!
heheh

Chris, hon, this face, what is up?

Aww I miss him like crazy.

I also miss all my friends back home.
Sean, Emma, Tinno, Caitlin, Val, Nicole, Patricia and others...
I want to see all of you when I get home

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. And you're my good feeling .

Days.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 16:18:15 GMT

My days have been filled with work, class, little sleep.

Anthropology is so fucking annoying, because she'll start off on topic then she'll get off topic within five minutes and just tell us stories about different people around the world. So if she talks for the whole fifty minutes, you'll barely get a half of page of notes.

Yeah that is awesome.

English is going to rock my socks, same with Bio

Intro to soc will be alright

I already have a quiz in philosophy on tuesday
I'm really fucking scared.
---------------------------------
So yesterday I worked
I was supposed to be doing prep for all four hours
But whitey the supervisor put me on line
It was fun
I worked with awesome people

Ended up doing other peoples job but hey it works out.

Then I came back here
talked to Kyle and Arobb

I took a shower because I smell like poor dead dying cooking cow alkjdf;aksjdf don't ask

Then ventured with them to taco bell

Lauras bf came last night from Southern
And we went to walmart
and bought... BEN AND JERRYS ICE CREAM
yes yes.

Then we just sat around my dorm and they all left at like 2 something.

I missed chris so much last night
I couldn't sleep
Because I didn't talk to him
a;sldkfjasdlfk.

But he called me this morning at like 10 something and thats wayyy early for him.

----------------------
I still feel like i'm not myself
And that theres the void missing

I'm so super excited to be going to UIC
Like really.

I have to take a couple of college algebra classes at Harper though over the summer
But it shouldn't be bad.

----------------------

Oh man I get to see chris this friday
SO excited.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. I have someone waiting for me back home .

Random pictures.

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 23:38:42 GMT

Random Pictures from my walk.

the sunset from a couple nights ago
too good to miss.
don't you wish you could share it with me?

those two I was looking outside of the dining center window

towards stevenson

The Bench outside my dorm.

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I dunno
Ever since I got here
I feel like I lost a big piece of me
Like there is this void
Of uncertainity.

I'm officially transfering to UIC
At the end of my Soph Year.
To be enrolled in the Jane Adaams Social Work Department
My mom is behind me one hundred percent
So that makes me feel good.

Too much homework
I have a headache

Work sucked today
I got yelled at
I was the only one working in my section
Things were backed up
My feet hurt
Yadda Yadda Yadda.

I'm actually starting to understand Philosophy
I'm excited.

I only have three classes tomorrow
Hooray.

New pics

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 00:51:49 GMT

Soo awesome.

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 15:32:24 GMT

My roommate is def. a no show.

So I have the room to myself.

I think I have to buy out the other half though.
Anyone want to chip in money, so you can like sleep up in here when you visit?

I started classes yesterday.

I don't know anyone in any of my classes
Except Biology
I have Kara in biology.

I had...

English
- Its good, smaller class, the guy looked like he wandered out from the forest. The theme for writing this semester is food. We get to do a paper on vegetarianism and what not, so needless to say i'm a bit excited.

Sociology
- This class is going to be sooo boring. Its just like high school sociology, but with a bitch more reading. I started doing that last night, and I have yet to finish the first Chapter of reading and taking notes.

Anthropology
- My teacher is a living fossil. Shes so old, but shes so excited about what she teaches, even if you can't hear her half the time. She talks very softly, and it kind puts me to sleep. I read both Chapters one and two yesterday and took notes, so all I have to do is a couple pages out of the other book. Oh and I think i'm the only freshman in the class, okay awesome.

Biology
- My teacher is young and a pistol. I don't think it will be much harder than high school biology. Its a huge class though. Oh well I have Kara.

This morning I had...

Philosophy
-Let me tell you, 8am classes are bitches. I was so tired. Theres only one other freshman in this class I believe. Its interesting stuff, because everything can start out as a broad statement, but no matter what, that statement can still be deccomposed. I got homework in the class today but oh well.

So today:
+ work til 1:30pm
+ Laundry
+ finishing soc, anthro, starting philosophy

I have a feeling I won't have much time to go out and do things. Which is alright because i'm not into the party scene anyway.

Oh well.

I'm not making friends that well either.
I'll live.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo

. Don't keep me waiting .

I'm excited

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 01:41:01 GMT

I get to see him labor day weekend.

I'm fucking excited.

Oh yeah...

Anyone else want to see me that weekend?

Comment or call me.

<3
Deidre
xoxoxo